Currently Watching Reality Bites By Ethan Hawke, Winona Ryder see related

But I Look At Your Pants And *gasp* I Need A Kiss

I was hanging around yesterday with nothing really to do so I decided to cut my own bangs! Guess what....I love what I've created lol.....sry I'm a little excited that I did that! Well, as of last night the Violent Femmes have exploded back into my life as one of my most favorite bands all thanx to a movie called, "Reality Bites." Here let me show you a sexy picture of Ethan Hawke from the movie: Well in this movie the sexy man to the left sings Add It Up by the Violent Femmes...and the scene was so idk perfect I started obsessing about the band again. So here are the lyrics to Add It Up...sry I couldn't find a place that had the music:

Why can't I get just one kiss?
Why can't I get just one kiss?
Believe me there'd be somethings that I wouldn't miss,
But I look at your pants and *gasp* I need a kiss.

Why can't I get just one screw?
Why can't I get just one screw?
Believe me I'd know what to do,
But something won't let me make love to you.

Why can't I get just one fuck?
Why can't I get just one fuck?
I guess it's something to do with luck,
But I waited my whole life for just one...

Day after day,
I get angry and I will say,
That the day is in my sight,
When I'll take abow and say goodnight.

Mo my momma momma mo my mum
Have you kept your eye your eye on your son?
I know you've had problems you're not the only one,
But when your sugar left he left you on the run.

Mo my momma momma mo my mum
Take a look now at what your boy has done.
He's walking around like he's number one;
He went downtown and got him a gun.
So don't you shoot shoot that thing at me!
You know you got my sympathy!
But don't shoot shoot shoot that thing at me!

In your broken down kitchen at the top of the stairs;
Can I mis in with your affairs?
Share a smoke, make a joke,
Grasp and reach for a leg of hope.

Words to memorize words hypnotize,
Words make my mouth exercise,
Words all fail the magic prize,
Nothing I can say when I'm in your thighs.

Mo my momma momma mo my mother
I would love to love you lover.
The city's restless, it's ready to pounce!
It go here in your bedroom ounce for ounce.

Said, "I'm giving you a decision to make,
Things to lose, things to take."
Just as she was about ready to cut it up,
She said, "Wait a minute honey, I'm gonna add it up,
I'm gonna add it up, add it up, and see what you got,
You gotta add it up."

Day after day,
I get angry and I will say,
That the day is in my sight,
When I take a bow and say goodnight,
"Goodnight"

God I love that song! I wish their I had a boy like Troy in the movie, "Reality Bites," but the likely hood of that happening is slim to none so I'm screwed. Anyways I'm working on writing...and let's just say hardly any inspiration coming my way. Okay since it's 8:13 AM I really don't have much to say...but I miss everyone...and I'm starting to want a make-out buddy lol I don't want serious shit I just want something fun...o'well I'm hungry. Ttyl darlings!

Love you!

Heather Mary

p.s. visit this link to check out Rob Zombie's new song Foxy Foxy....it's sexy! http://us.video.aol.com/video.index.adp?mode=1&pmmsid=1465022&referer=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.singingfish.com

Currently Listening Show Your Bones By Yeah Yeah Yeahs 6. Cheated Hearts see related

We'll Build A Fire In Your Eyes

THANK GOD FOR THE YEAH YEAH YEAHS! I have Gold Lion stuck in my head and I'm anxiously waiting for their latest album to drop! lol I must admit the song's not too tricky to play just F# A E A.....and the solo you can just pluck it out.

Well not much news to share on this cold Spring Break we're all experiencing here in Lee's Summit. I might hang with Raven tomorrow but I'm still not sure if I can. I'm kinda of sick of certain people right now....with these people which I'm speaking of you either have to look exactly like them or they don't really care for you.....All I have to say is I'm a really nice and interesting person and I'm not a black obsessed freak! I have other colors in my wardrobe but you just don't choose to see them. Also I'd like to say I do enjoy hanging out with you people and I don't judge you....you're cool in my book if you can be nice back. It's not like I'm going to bite? Sorry but that's all I have to say. Oh and if anyone knows Kelsey Hladik could you please ask her what her problem is because she like all of a sudden went back-stabbing on me soooo....if you could help me like the game clue...I'd appreciate that!

I bought earrings! My camera battery died so I can't show you pictures of them but their coolie-o! I think I'm starting to fall in love......WITH THE COLOR PINK! It's gorgeous....and flirty! Well I can't think of too much more to say so I'll leave you with lyrics to, "Gold Lion" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs!

Gold lion's gonna tell me where the light is,
Gold lion's gonna tell me where the light is,
Take our hands out of control,
Take our hands out of control.

Now, tell me what you saw,
Tell me what you saw,
There was a crowd of seeds,
Inside, outside,
I must have done a dozen each

It was the height I threw, the weight,
The shell was crushing you,
I've been around a few

Tell me what you saw,
I'll tell you what to...
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh

Gold lion's gonna tell me where the light is,
Gold lion's gonna tell me where the light is,
Take our hands out of control,
Take our hands out of control

Outside, Insided,
This is the moon without a tide,
We'll build a fire in your eyes,
We'll build a fire when the cover's getting brighter,
Cold as I, makes the moon without a tide

Tell me what you saw,
I'll tell you what to...
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh

Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh
Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ohh ohh

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 Heather Mary

Currently Listening Year of Meteors By Laura Veirs 2. Galaxies see related

<3JUNIOR VARSITY BABY<3

Well, this spring break seems to be completely dull and cold, so I'm not expecting any excitement to come my way. Megg's party was a blast...eww except the ugly creepy black guys that hit on us...ugh sexual preditor alert major! lol Jen and I had a whole conversation about Matt Devine and the many places we'd go to fuck him. lol god it was sexy and a good way to slip into a fantastic dream. I think I'm going to dye my hair red next....it'd be interesting and would fit my personality....plus my sister always has said I'd look good in it. I'm kinda in a daze right now lol (i'm watching dazed and confussed as I type this lol) I kinda glad I'm single it clears my head more lol but it doesn't do anything for my hormones or sex cravings lol. I'm getting sucked into fashion right now and with each runway shot I see the more sick I get of my blan wardrobe that I've had since 6th grade...god and the likely hood of me going shopping is like we'll find a cure for aids soon. O'well I have to go eat because my mom and sis are bitchin' me out from across the room. See you all in like 2 weeks.

love ya darlings,

Heather mary

p.s. It's almost April 2nd and I will soon be near Matt, ou la la

Currently Listening Stunt Pilots By Kill Hannah see related

OMFG OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT THEIR BRAND NEW ALBUM IS COMPLETE AND THEIR GOING ON TOUR TO WHERE I CAN VIEW THEM IN THE FLESH THEY JUST RELEASED THEIR NEW SONG CALLED, "LIPS LIKE MORPHINE," VISIT http://www.myspace.com/killhannah  AND CHECK IT OUT! I SWEAR YOU'LL BE AMAZED....I HAVE THE LYRICS HERE THEY ARE! LOL I FIGURED THEM OUT IN 2 LISTENS O YEAH!

I wanna girl with lips like morphine
Knock me out every time they touch me
I wanna feel a kiss just crush me
And break me down

Knock me out
Knock Me Out
'Cause I've waited for all my life
To be here with you tonight

I wanna girl with lips like morphine
Blow a kiss that leaves me gasping
And I wanna feel the lightening strike me
And burn me down

Knock me out
Knock Me Out
'Cause I've waited for all my life
To be here with you tonight

Just put me on my back
Knock me out again

I wanna girl with lips like morphine
Knock me out every time they touch me
I wanna girl with lips like...morphine
To knock me out!

KICK ASS GUITAR SOLO

See I've waited for all my life
To be here with you tonight
Just put me on my back
Knock me out again

 I KNOW AREN'T YOU PSYCHED....I'M EXTREMELY PSYCHED....OMG I SWEAR MATT DEVINE IS SEXY IN EVERY  WAY IN SINGING, WRITING, APPERENCE....LOL ORGY TIME! okay anyways my knees are bruised so here's some pictures!

DAY 1 OF CHEER TRYOUTS:

DAY 2 OF CHEER TRYOUTS:

 The gorgeous flowers are a gift from Megg for my performance in the school play on opening night! Thank you darling I LOVE THEM!

My dashing carnations from everyone on Valentine's Day!

I SWEAR DON'T FUCK WITH ME OR THE GINGERBREAD-MAN LOSES THE OTHER ARM! AND I'M NOT KIDDING I'LL TURN TO DAMN CANNIBALISM IF I HAVE TO!

Can't you just taste the chemicals!?!

RIP KYLE'S HAIR; we knew thee headbanging well

Mr.Wentworth from Rainforest Cafe'!

You know how each year you strive to get the most signatures you possibly can in your year book?Then, once taking a look back on it, which you probly do once every year, you notice all the HAGS, KA's, and phone numbers that are constantly repeated.I mean when people put their phone numbers in the book do they actually think you're going to call them? Because I know the only time I ever used the yearbook for a phone number was when I forgot my bestfriend that I've had for 14 years' phone number. So when you think about it...it's better to spend like 5 minutes on something nice and caring to say that has meaning over 3 minutes writing HAGS I LOVE YOU CALL ME # 287-3892, <3 Chrisy? I let Mrs. Files off the hook though because she's amazing!Note from the gym coach!many pictures just like this one!Anyone know what ever happened to this kid?

My sister Megan spent about 10 minutes drawing, erasing, and re-drawing this for her amazing boyfriend John Anthony Moroso!Crappy Western-Re-make picture...lol I'm the shortest one in it....way back when you know?

I love you guys!

Heather Mary

P.s. BAD Picture of an internet picture due to non-copy button!

Currently Watching William Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet (Special Edition) see related

Pain Is Just The Beginning To A Life Time Of Suffering

Do ever have those days when you really can't believe everything that's happening around you is truly happening so you think your in a dream? Well, for the past 7 months all I've been thinking is, "When is someone going to wake me up?" Maybe it's just because my head broke my fall today or I'm just finally getting fed up with it but, how can you go through 7 months of nothing but pain. I think I've had so much I'm starting not to feel it and I can sense when it's going to hit. I feel like I might be dying, I really don't know why but, I have this feeling, I mean the sicknesses keep adding up, the breathing is becoming short and less frequent , my eyes are losing focus, the heart seems to skip an important beat and slow the blood coursing through my veins, I seem to lose strength each day with my feet feeling heavier with each step I take, and I can't find anything that truly makes me happy. Sorry to sound so depressive, it's just I'm really not feeling anything else. Relationships aren't a big thing to be now...seeing as all of them end up being destroyed anyways....what's the use in causing yourself more hurt and pain? I find it strange how people can make it through life by lying....my mother does it, my father does it, Nikki does it, Kaiya does it, and even people who you least expect to lie do it everyday. People think I lie and I'll admit it I'll lie like maybe one to two times a week, because it is human nature, but to lie everytime you speak just seems unbareable also very tiring for the imagination. I guess it could be passed down through families. One thing I know is that I will never ever ever ever ever be like my family...If I have to live alone forever I'll do so but I could never live like that forever.

         Do any of you have those things that just make you sick to your stomach to think about or to have to put up with? Like for example, cleaning up throw-up or helping change a dirty diaper, or even watching people use the restroom without washing their hands then going to eat? Well, I've recently discovered that the fact of my mother dating men and my father going on a cruise with Olga to go get married makes me feel as though I ate porcupine mixed with hotsauce and a hotdog. I swear for years my parents never took me really anywhere or got me anything I wanted for the heck of it and sometimes when I even needed it. So why is it that all of a sudden my mom can afford to dye her hair, get it cut, go clothing shopping FOR HERSELF every single day, eat out all the time, go on dates, see new movies, rent movies, and purchase the most make-up and jewel my eyes have ever looked upon? Oh and now my father can go on cruise and buy everything for his precious Olga while giving them a roof and food...oh yeah did I mention she has a son Demetry(or however you spell it). Now I would understand if they keep their relationship lives to themselves but whenever I am with my mother I have to give her dating advice and go shopping with her and pick out stuff for her next hot date and when I'm with my father I go shopping with him and Olga and we pick out stuff for her to wear on the cruise and in bed and out to swim and to dance in. I mean my dad does buy Cara and I stuff  but it's to get us to shut-up and not be so angry with him....my dad likes to buy people off. My mother likes to act nice when she is about to drop a world of her responsiblities onto you. It's sick to know that I can see all of this coming but I wonder what would be worse knowing it all or not knowing anything?

         I'm confussed with having friends....they are why I hate secrets and why I hate liars. Everyone has their cliques which makes me sick to my stomach...honestly people should just all get along it would lessen the drama in the world by like millions. I have never truly had a friendship and I know this might hurt some of the people that are reading this but it's true. Their is not a single person I know that I can tell everything to; I've also learned I shouldn't tell everything to everyone because then you have nothing that means anything. Girls are fun to hang out with and talk to but their so bitch and backstabbing. I have not one friend has never talked about me behind my back...I know all of them have at least done it once because here's the thing....GIRLS CAN'T KEEP A SECRET! So if you talk about someone behind their backs the other girl is going to go back to them and tell them what all you said just because they find it funny or they want to piss someone off....it's a cruel system but it is true. Anyways I just want to say look out for yourself and don't get attached to anyone because it always comes back to bite you in the ass and ruin your life.

Heather Mary

P.s. People aren't that pretty on the inside.